Has there ever been a time in your life where you have felt that everything, and I mean everything, is a priority? And I don’t mean everything on your 9-5 work to do list but rather every aspect of life needs to come first, right now, this instant? I can’t seem to currently figure out what I want/need/what I’m supposed to 100% focus on and dedicate myself to. I want everything to be great, settled and in place.
Marathon training is supposed to come first. My relationship is supposed to come first. My family is supposed to come first. My blog is supposed to come first. And same thing for my friendships and my corporate 9-5 life. I want to focus on all of these things with all of my energy but recently the balance isn’t there. Why is it that everything I value is supposed to come first and why am I putting pressure on myself to feel this way?
Right now more than ever, I have this urge to be perfect at everything I’m doing. I’m typically hard on myself but for some reason, unbeknownst to me, something has hit me where this need for perfection has been amplified by 1000x. I want to do a kick ass job 9-5, I want to be the perfect girlfriend, the perfect daughter, the perfect sister, run a perfect run and I can’t figure out why the sudden need for equal perfection in all aspects of my life.
What would my 30 year old self tell my 25 year old self if it saw me today trying to juggle it all? Maybe I can think of two words… r -e-l-a-x & r-e-b-o-ot? Who knows, I guess I’ll figure it out in a few years. So in the meantime, I’m going to Greece on Thursday to just lay on a beach. Maybe I’ll figure it out at that point too.
* all pictures taken for c’est moi natasha